_______ A Beautiful Lie

randomness

this is meant for my personal reflection.

so i saw tis couple the other night.
on my way back from trg.
he was abt my height n is skinny.
she was shorter den me.
and way way fatter den me.
ok. i don mean to insult or whatever.
but she reali is fat.
he's reali skinny.
n they are an item.

my point is.
if someone like her got a bf, why do i feel so bad abt myself?
why do i feel like i've got super low self esteem?
why do i feel so inferior?

OH. i noe why.

cos i'm surrounded by ppl who are almost perfect.
who don haf UGLY lumps of fats somewhere in their body.
guy teammates who are muscular n NOT fat.
babe teammates who are toned n again, not fat.
besties who are slim n slender.

so why am i feeling shitty?
i'm like almost wallowing myself in self-pity!
argh.
wake up!
time to hit the gym, swim & lose all the unsightly fats!

so i'm in need of a retail therapy.
badly!
i need a new bag.
i need a new wallet.
i need new jeans.
i need alot of new stuffs!
but most importantly,
i NEED a job.

i'm jobless nw n it totally sucks.

lisaaaaa penned a beautiful lie
at 2:30 pm

Lisaaaaa ;
TwentyOne ; 310387 ;
~~NP sch of BA~~ ;
Dragonboat ; Safra DB ;

021208 . Adek's 19th .
061208 . Hamx off to Sydney .
081208 . Hari Raya Haji .
131208 . Lunch wif Fss frens .
251208 . X'mas .

bangkok ;
europe ;
aussie. again ;
do pull ups ;
toned biceps ;
toned deltoids ;
toned triceps ;