_______ A Beautiful Lie

disappointment

i am a BIG disappointment.

i broke down twice.
once ; when i saw abg's reply last nite.
twice ; when i was steering today afternoon.

i dunno why.
but i am not performing anymore.
i don show any standards anymore.
yest at WG trg.
n today during steering.

WG trg.
my drills sucks!
my personal drills noe.
n to tink, i've done tis so many times.
i reali cant keep up.
i am such a disappointment.

today's steering.
i cant even steer properly.
ok. maybe i was tired.
but dat doesnt give me a
reason to nt perform rite?
tis reali sucks.
jun says i shd rest.
but i tink i disappointed him la.
n myself.

i tink i've disappointed lots of ppl.
myself included.
i haf to buck up.
NO.
i MUST buck up.
so dat i am able to perform
up to expectations.
so dat i wont be a disappointment.
anymore.

anw SSC06 ended today.
tiring. but fun.
though its only 1 1/2 day.
i love da ppl.
u guys noe who u are. :)

oh.
my injured knee is getting
from bad to worse.
hope it will be better soon.
sigh.

lisaaaaa penned a beautiful lie
at 9:27 pm

Lisaaaaa ;
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