_______ A Beautiful Lie

currently listening : nothing

1 more day to hana's dear bday. 3 more days to getting results. 4 more days to Affirmation. 9 more days to my bday. 22 more days to da end of attachment. i'm looking forward more to da end of ITP den anything else in da whole world. truly. well. holidays are da time for me to catch up on my sleep. but nw, i'm sleep-less. almost. all these lack of slp are making me cranky n my eyes sore. boohooo.

i've been returning home from work to find myself caught in my parent's war. do parent's haf to fight? i remembered when i was little, my parents used to say dat i cannot fight wif my sis. cos she is, well, my sis n she's younger den me. i'm supposed to love her n play wif her n take care of her. but are parents doing da same? i mean they got married cos they love each other. so i tink they were contradicting themselves. they told me i'm supposed to love and care but they arent doin da same? cant they see dat i'm upest here? upset wif their actions. haix. parents will always be parents. they always tink they're right.

i tink da depression worm is eating me up again. i feel guilty when i eat. n dat makes me eat more. i feel da extremely huge NEED for a hug. i feel da urge to cry myself to slp. i feel da empowering need to haf my personal space n be alone. why is tis happening? fark.

anw before i die, i just wanna say

Happy 19th Bday HANA!!!
a year older, a year wiser.
may all ur wishes come true.
may u be happy always.
-huggs-

lisaaaaa penned a beautiful lie
at 9:12 pm

Lisaaaaa ;
TwentyOne ; 310387 ;
~~NP sch of BA~~ ;
Dragonboat ; Safra DB ;

021208 . Adek's 19th .
061208 . Hamx off to Sydney .
081208 . Hari Raya Haji .
131208 . Lunch wif Fss frens .
251208 . X'mas .

bangkok ;
europe ;
aussie. again ;
do pull ups ;
toned biceps ;
toned deltoids ;
toned triceps ;