_______ A Beautiful Lie

hmmm

hmmm. i guess things are quite ok. for nw. mom's talking again. but somehow i juz find it hard to forget da words she said to me da other day. "go to hell". i'm trying to forget them. reali. but i juz find it hard to do so. mebi da words are juz to painful for me to swallow. or mebi i'm juz hard hearted. either way, its just hard to forget dat. haix.

didnt slp da whole day. don ask me why. i don even noe myself. i was still sms-ing wif nini at 1.45am. when she went to slp at 1.50am, i'm juz stoning right in da middle of da living room. my books are in front of me. somehow i'm studyin but i just cant focus. i lie down at like 2.15am oni to find myself wide awake accompanied by total darkness. finally fell asleep at 3plus. woke up at 5.30am to do prayers. den after dat, helped ard da hse. cos apparently my mom is pissed off at my sis. she refused to slp last nite n cant wake up for sch tis mornin. i finally got some peace at 8.15am. sis left for sch. mom left for work. finished da hse work. wanted to go swimming. but i fell asleep. n woke up oni at 12!! ugh. its so damn late la. but i guess dats da outcome of nt being able to slp at nite.

went out at 3plus. to go to da lib. went to cwp before dat. to look at some things dat i wanna get. keep thinking if i shd get them. den spent like 2 1/2hrs in lib. supposed to be studying but i ended up readin tis book. cos its on cats!! yey. haha. so spent like 1hr plus to study n stuff. finished everything at 6plus. den walked home. so till nw, i'm still here. oh wth am i talking abt seh. ok. tink i need a cca. as in sch based one. its for da future. haha. shucks. i need one nw. fast. anyone wanna take me in for their cca? considering dat i'm fat ugly n lazy. haha. ok. guess gtg. da family's making noise n stuff. mebi will be online later. hehe. byes. take care. - huggs -

lisaaaaa penned a beautiful lie
at 8:59 pm