today is da one time after so long. dat NCC is able to make me forget my worries, my sorrows, my insecurities. didnt do much. but its juz da way how i felt abt da whole thing dat makes me forget my unhapiness. but well. dat feeling didnt last. i'm back to square one again. i don wanna feel tis way anymore. its tiring. but i juz cant help nt feelin tis way. argh.

i met u today. after so many days. suddenly, all da memories dat we once shared came back to me. from da moment dat u told me u liked me. to when u loved me. n, to when u told me dat i'm NOT THE ONE. i tried hard. very hard. to forget whatever had happened between us. though all this happened almost a year ago, it still feels like yest. from feelin elated to da day i felt dat my heart was broken into a million pieces. yes. i moved on. but i thought i can moved on w/o havin to still remembering all these. but no. u still had to be in a part of my life. i told myself to erase all the unhappiness. but seeing u always, keeps running da images of da past in my mind. n it doesnt help dat ur so familiar to me. like da smell of ur perfume. i was drowned in da smell when u sat beside me juz nw. i hate dat feeling. i wan to erase you from my memory. or at least. da memories we shared. i don need it anymore.

i wished dat i can run from all these. i don need insecurities. i don need worries. i don need unhappy memories. i don need them. wat i want is juz happiness. but i've nv gotten wat i ever wanted. how i wished i can go back to aussie. when i went for ex-wallaby. when life seems simple enuf. when things doesnt seem so complicated. when all da memories dat i gained were happy ones. but den, its juz wishful thinkin on my part. i can nv go back to aussie. life will nv be simple. things will always be complicated. memories are well.. juz memories.

anw. to ys. tanx dear. for being there for me. tanx for listening to me. tanx for da *hugs. tanx for all da comforting words. tanx for da time. tanx for everything. n thank god dat i knew u. =)


*mebi. juz mebi. its a mistake to noe u babe.

lisaaaaa penned a beautiful lie
at 12:04 am

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