_______ A Beautiful Lie

NCC. love it. loathe it.

went for trainfire today. to help out. after being MIA-ed for quite some time from central activities. i just got loads of other things k. haha. so i was pretty excited abt it. hey. nt excited in da way da sec1 cadets were (cos its their first time "playing" wif rifles). excited dat i am able to play ard wif da old M16. haha. ok. ok. call me crazy but i just miss these things k. n of course. it brings loads of memories. right from when i was in sec1 itself. n seeing siying joe n gary in hq today just reminds me more of da old times.

like when i was in sec1, our camp is like 4 days in HQ NCC itself. which isnt that clean. nt dat it is nw. haha. n nw my sec1 cadets camp-ed in sch. in da comfort of tents and sleeping bags. n proper home-cooked food. n campfire! like wtf.

in sec2, i spent another 4 days in HQ ncc again for our part b camp. no campfire. no nice tents. its da same old beds plus 50push-ups on da first nite wif PT added on every freaking morning. n nt to mention, SCARY clts. these days, sec2 kids go for Camp Feast. which is for ONLY 2 days wif campfire in da itinery. activities like rock climbing and whatever elements are done by them. n worse of all, CLTs cant even scold them. again, wtf.

when i was in sec3, da whole lot of us went for spec course. it was 5 days. sleeping on da filthy beds. doing PT every single morning. presenting mutuals n stuffs. getting scolded by the CLTs. just because u wear shorts. n having to share a freaking bunk wif da RGS ncc ppl. which totally sucks i tell u. i'm nt kidding! so tis year, da cadets get to stay in. 2 days in sispec. 2 days in hq. sispec is soo cool i tink. but imagine, these kids getting these privileges. n when they pass out as specs, what haf they become? oh. nw girls are permitted to wear shorts in hq. which was a total no-no last time. even when u go to slp! see. how time changes.

at da end of sec4, i went for 46th CLT course. it was for 2 1/2 weeks. n it was conducted on da second day of Hari Raya. again, mutuals. PT. super scary clts. especially siying. she was super scary. scared me to death. really. i wanted to ooc myself out from da course on da last week of da course! but rehan n sukhbir persuaded me nt to. nt forgetting ian soh. there's alot dat i went thru in clt course. all da joys and tears. but reali. i cant find anyone as scary as siying till today. (well. cadets tell me i'm scary but i dunno if i can be on par wif her. haha.) but on my POP day, she actually came up to me to hug me n congrat me on enduring her during da whole course. i mean which senior wld actually do dat rite? but nw, clt courses are different. from wat i see n wat ppl told me. its totally different la.

when i was a clt, gary was da central OIC. n there's tis one time he was so pissed off wif da whole bunch of clts (me included), he made us marched. reali marched ok. to n fro da space at blk 246. i mean clts asked to march by ur OIC as a punishment. abit funny rite. but we still did it. cos why. we respected him. but nw. if sangaran (he's da central oic nw) were to tell da da whole central (from 48th batch onwards. cos i tink da ones older den 48th almost dying already) to march, i tink they wld just laughed it off n tell him dat he's crazy. i can picture it nw la. reali. see da differences ppl? see.

n nw, i'm a s/clt. i guess whatever i went thru serves as lessons and experiences dat i can n shd learn from. some may be painful and embarassing but hey, its part and parcel of life rite. of course there were da happy ones. da ones which keeps me still wanting to serve NCC. haix.

n den, there's da new TCO. who's super weird. n abit mental. i tink. he likes to mumble to himself. n he's like got a prob wif ITE ppl or smth la. which is like biased rite. n he tinks dat i wanna stalk him just cos i stay like super near to him. HELLLLOOOOOOO!!!!! if i ever wan to stalk someone, i'll go for someone better-looking k??? someone nt so nerdy!! someone, just nt u! bleugh.

of course, there's supernumerary. smth which i belonged in. i was from the '04 batch. RSM NCC's first batch. n nw RSM has his 3rd batch of ppl. but hello!!! where's da respect for supernumerary. ok. u guys may nt respect dat, but where's da respect for RSM? i tink u guys shd reali touch ur heart n ask why u wan to be one or even bothered to be one? ok. u may be proud to be in supernumerary n boast abt it. but wearing a supernumerary shirt down to ORCHARD rd while ur monkeying ard is a total NO!! yes. supernumerary shd be proud of who we are but wif attitude like tis, there's nth to be proud of guys. in fact, u shd feel ashamed of urselves. i believe dat RSM will be quite upset to noe dat there are ppl from his so-called elite circle of ppl actually behaves tis way.

NCC. love it. loathe it. i love NCC. truly. but at da same time, i kinda loathe it. why? cos i didnt get da satisfaction dat i aimed to achieve when i am serving the Corp. anymore. when i first started out as a clt, it is ok. i love every min of it. but nw, i haf to tink twice before i sign up for smth. i noe. tis shd nt be da way. but i guess when there's too many ppl and over-crowding results, the corp isnt just as effective as it used to be. my passion for the Corp hasnt died. it is just fading away slowly.

i'm just glad that there's someone worth looking at whenever i'm in hq. though u can be a pain sometimes. haha.

this has nth to do wif anyone in particular. but if u tink i am talking abt YOU (whoever u may be), u can either talk to me or just click on da X on da top right corner of da page. tanx.

lisaaaaa penned a beautiful lie
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