_______ A Beautiful Lie

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here's MANJE.
my beloved cat.
da only female one in da whole household.
da one who got jaundice a few weeks back.

da one who was fed wif medicine.

da one who has become so thin n light.
da one who has shed her furs here n there.
da one who refused to eat n ONLY drinks.
da one who still purrs lovingly when she sees me.
da one who is sick.
da one who may be in pain but i just cant see it.
da one whom i cant bear to lose.

so yes. i've been feeling rather concern abt tis cat of mine. she refused to eat. she doesnt wan to play anymore. i noe she is sick. but i don tink of her being in pain. maybe it's just a thought to comfort myself. nt her, da sick one. maybe i'm just selfish. mom talks abt putting her to slp. dad doesnt wan to cos he tinks its better to just let her go naturally. if her time is up, den she'll go. me? i just cant bear da thought of losing her. she's becoming so thin dat i can just carry her wif one hand n nt feel weight at all. da more i tink abt it, da more i feel dat life cycle is just cruel. n da more i tell myself dat she's goin to be ok, da more UNCONVINCING it sounds. she may be a stray when we first took her in but she's stayed at tis place long before we moved in n yes, we love her loads. i reali cant bear losing her. if she has to go, i pray dat she'll go peacefully. though i still keep up hope dat she'll live longer. all i can do nw, like RSM said to me, is to shower her wif tender loving care.

don look at me dat way, it was an honest mistake

lisaaaaa penned a beautiful lie
at 11:31 pm

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