_______ A Beautiful Lie

currently listening : thank you for loving me - bon jovi

i tink its comforting to noe dat someone cares for u. someone misses u. someone is happy dat ur happy. though it may nt seem much to other ppl, it means ALOT to me. reali. it makes me feel loved. n i tink i'm contented. tanx ppl.

exams are ard da corner. my first paper is starting in 5 days. i need to study hard. cos i didnt wan to disappoint my mom. hmmm. anw i forced myself to study till 1 plus am last night. cos i'm like always feeling sleepy. maybe its da medications i'm taking nw la. but whatever it is, i'm just determined to study hard and get over da exams. ugh.

anyways. i've quit AKE. i feel dat i cant commit myself anymore. i haven been goin for da trg. oni just da meetings. sorry guys. but i reali feel dat there's just too much for me to do. for nw, exams n affirmation. ok. it doesnt sound alot but all these affirm is starting to go my head oreadi. but nvm. i can do it. i must persevere till da end. i reali must. like it or not.

oh ya. i'm starting my attachment soon too. right after exams. exams end on 3rd march, attachment starts on da 6th. two days of holidays only. but technically, i only haf one day. cos da another one day is goin to be spent in hq ncc for affirm. attachment is for seven weeks. means no holidays. at all. n i haf to work 5.5 days. so ya.

and oh. i haven been going for my run religiously too. i didnt run last week. last week was a hectic week cos it was s0-called da last week of sch. tis week was relatively better. but i still missed out on running tis week. haix. n i didnt go swimming during these two weeks also! argh. i can imagine just how much fats i can gained in da two weeks. i desperately need to lose weight man.

anyways. need to go back to my studies. da book is calling me again. but da thought of me reali studying just makes me shudder n my hair stand.

lisaaaaa penned a beautiful lie
at 11:08 am