_______ A Beautiful Lie

currently listening : nothing

just reached home from school. no one's at home. except for my three darlings. all sleeping. i haf da whole hse n i like it. being alone is just wat i need nw. but i just cant stand da deafening silence ard me. its just tooooo quiet. i like da idea of being alone n somehow, da silence. i guess they gave me a sense of peace n calmness.

i remembered mr d talking abt being alone n lonely in our ALW (appreciating literary works) class. ppl always associate alone with lonely. but doest mean ur alone (all by urself), ur lonely. in da context dat u haf no one, no frens, no nth. being alone is just one's own decision to keep to their self. so there. being alone doesnt mean one is lonely. maybe one just likes da idea of being alone. cos if u havent notice, when ur alone (but nt in a crowd or places full of unknown ppl), u'll tend to be able to tink more clearly n make da so-called more right decisions. its true. its nt just me. try it. da next time u reali feel da need to be alone k.

and so i'm alone at home. saw yb online. talked to her. asked her abt her v day. cos apparently its humorous cum touching cum traumatising. haha. so she told me to read cy's blog to get a better idea first. so i did. i couldnt let myself miss out on da fun, cld i? n seriously, i laughed till i almost "peng". haha. especially da pun intended part. "go deep go, go deep go!" wahahaha. its truly funny. i cant imagine someone like LTA Amardeep is actually da sentimental sort. i mean someone so brutal n vulgar n mean like him would actually do tis for someone he likes. haha. to those who dunno him, he's tis LTA in AMQ camp. one look n u noe its him. cos he's da hairiest of all. n when u do see him for da first time, u wont tink dat he's someone who would kneel down in front of da girl he likes n sing her a song. or even gave her a dozen of roses or chocs. haha. u get my point? haha. dear yb. i tink u've really made him open up his heart. hahahaha. yb was abit tramautised by da whole thing anw. but hope she'll be ok soon. considering dat she oni haf abt one more day to face him. haha.

i wasnt alone anymore for a brief moment just nw. cos my sis came back. she refused to answer me when i asked her things. den she start banging da doors n everything. wats her prob man. n nw she's out again wif her frens. we had an argument yest. maybe dats why. but lets face it. we argue everyday. every SINGLE day. so wats da deal wif her. ugh. forget it.

i've been having major migraine attacks. it feels like my head is goin to crack or smth. ugh. guess i'll just haf to endure da pain. i regained da whole hse back to myself. i'm alone again. n i like it.

lisaaaaa penned a beautiful lie
at 2:07 pm